I had a nightmare last night. I woke up in a pool of sweat two hours after I'd climbed in bed. I've been taking half a Xanax to sleep. I've tried over the counter stuff and the hangover is too much. So I tried not to take any sleeping aids, when I finally got to sleep I slid right back into the lucid dreams.
I'm weary of drugs. It seems to me doctors hand them out in shopping bags. I have a long family history of addiction. I have a fear of becoming addicted, but I need to function too. I feel like taking meds is a weakness when I want to be strong.
I'm frustrated because there is no one qualified to treat PTSD in my area.... Unless I'm a Veteran, which I'm not.
I keep hearing, "Get over it." "Move on." Oh, how I'd love to people. I really would, but riddle me this, how to you "Get Over It" when your body and your unconscious will not allow you to move on?
When someone has the answer to THAT then we'll talk. Until then SHUT UP!
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