Life In February

Live has been interesting. I recently accepted a 40 hour a week position in local government. It has been a tough transition for me, as I no longer have the freedom to do things on my own time. I also don't get to spend as much time with my Beloveds, but they seem to be okay with that. The good part about the job is that it has given me a sense of freedom and a new identity. The sense of freedom is important because I felt finically cornered. I couldn't take care of myself, therefore had to stay in my situation if for no other reason. The new identity is important, because they don't know I'm damaged.

I have also started therapy with a PTSD therapst. Since I live in the middle of no where, the appointments are telemedicine. (Think Skype with a doctor.) This new therapist is teaching me Eye Movement Desensitization And Reprocessing (EMDR) to help with my symptoms. She is the first therapist to try and teach me new techniques on how do deal with my symptoms instead of just talking about them. Well see how it goes.

I am also getting up at 5 am to practice yoga 5 days a week. This is quite shocking since I'm not a morning person. I have noticed drastic benefits concerning energy, focus, and my ability to accept whatever comes flying at my head with a bit of grace.

Hopefully things will continue to get better. My coping skill will improve, and I'll be able to deal and move on with my life. Or at least that's the dream.